Disappointing–that’s what it was this week. It was a rough day. I was rejected by my first choice school for the graduate program I want to pursue. While the school is ranked at a mid level by U. S. News, the ratio of applicants to offers made, is about 16% per cent, making it comparable with the top schools in the country.
In my head, I was already accepted and attending. With nearly a perfect GPA and a credible portfolio, the product of more than two decades as an artist, I felt I would be able to hold my own with a group of recent graduates. I never seriously entertained the possibility that I would not be accepted.
Whether they actually evaluated my portfolio and application or if there was some ageism involved is still unknown. I’m trying to chase down the answers.
Meanwhile, it left me pretty down. But a new friend of mine from PT, Danny, tried to get me to have some perspective on it and cheer up. He sent me a link to a video made of Steve Jobs (Apple Computer founder) when he addressed Stanford’s graduating class.
Jobs told three stories, all of which greatly resonated with me. The one most pertinent was the one about connecting the dots. He made the point that we can never predict how the elements of our life will come together as we look to the future. We can only connect the dots by looking back to the past to see what we have already done and how they have come together. You have to trust in something– your gut, karma, destiny, whatever, and believe that it will all work out in the future. It’s impossible to connect the dots looking forward, you can only do it looking back.
So I’m going to trust in karma and assume that this disappointment will propel me on another path, the one that will set me on fire to take the world!
Seeking inspiration to move me to a better place, I came across this song by Melissa Lawson, “What If It All Goes Right?” Makes me smile when I hear it.
So I’m feeling much more positive now and looking forward to connecting the dots when it all goes right!
Part of my Teacup Series. This large painting was executed to experience an unusual perspective. Do you see the small creature enlivening the picture?